TWO WAYS: Alternate ending GTOP
Words: 1,277 ; unedited
POV: 2nd POV, Seungri
A/N: Well, I made this ending for Two ways written byjemnise  and oxygenlove  because *spoiler* I was so sad jemnise  killed TOP when I told her otherwise. LOLZ. Anyway, I don't want to give much of what will happen and I am telling you, I am not a writer. I just write for fun and there are a lot of better writers out there. So apologies if I don't meet your expectations. As early as now, don't expect anything. HAHA. And if you must read Two Ways, read up to number 8 and then start reading what I wrote. Enjoy? XD

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The moment that SeungHyun steps in the boy's private space, the skinny boy with those dark circles looked at him pleading as he said; "I give up, I don't think I can be with him hyung."

Okay so your heart just broke into a million pieces when you said that.

“What?” The older boy looks at you, confusion obvious on his face.

“That’s impossible. Maybe you’re thinking he chose me over you because he was with me last night. Well, yes he was with me but all he did was tell me that he is in love with you.”

You can hear his voice crack with bitterness and anger as he says these words. Now you want to laugh and strangle Jiyong because he’s one confusing bitch.

You look into your Hyung’s eyes and you feel all the pain he’s going through.

“Hyung, he just told you that because he knows how stubborn you can be. He knows you won’t give him up. The leader in him took over. He wanted to protect me and he thinks that the only way to do that is for him to get back together with me. In short, he lied to you, Hyung.”

You don’t know why you’re the one explaining this to him when Jiyong’s at the recording studio sulking because he thought Seunghyun hyung left already. He couldn’t bear to see his only source of air lose his own.

I’ll bring him back to you, Hyung. Just hang in there, you said to yourself as you leave and look for the older Seunghyun.

So now you’re here staring at Seunghyun hyung cry endless tears after hearing all of what you said.

“Wait. How did you know all of these?” He said, wiping his tears, his voice a bit lighter now.

Your head is spinning already. You so wanted to end this conversation and bring him to Jiyong already because you’re broken and bleeding inside as you sit in front of him doing all the talking and you don’t know if you can still take it. But you tell yourself, Be strong Ri. Be patient. This is all for his happiness.

So you answer his question.

“He followed me to Gwangju, remember? Well, he found me at the bus stop when I was on the way back to Seoul. He looked so drained, so tired of all this. And then he learns from you that you’re leaving? That’s bullshit, Hyung. I know this is all my fault. And he doesn’t deserve this.”

And then he asks you a question that should really remain unanswered especially in the presence of the older.

“Why are you doing this, Seungri? Don’t you love Jiyong?”

You stand up from your seat and turn your back to him to go to the window, secretly glancing at the picture of you and him, still sitting on your table near where you’re standing, before going back to look at the sunset.

“He’s my life, hyung. But unfortunately for me, you’re his.”

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You feel the air thinning with every step you make. Your feet feel heavy as you and Seunghyun take the elevator to the recording studio. Maybe it’s just the altitude. Breathe, Seungri. Breathe.

“You don’t have to come with me, you know.” He said, his voice feeling guilty as they come nearer the recording studio.

“No, hyung. It’s okay. I have to make sure he’s still there and he didn’t hang himself or something.”

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As you make your way to your apartment, you sort of feel a bit lighter. You felt a bit relieved when you saw Jiyong’s still there, exactly where you left him: slumped in a corner with his face buried in his knees.

“Hyung.”

You called him and he looks up and sees you and then the person beside you. You saw how his face lit up and how he ran into the older’s arms.

With that, you know he’s going to be okay. Everything will be okay.

You open the apartment door and you see Daesung on the couch watching TV and you see Youngbae cooking something that smells like kimchi chige.

“Seungri-yah! I knew you’d be back!” And you receive a bear hug from Daesung.

WARMTH. HUMAN TOUCH.

This is what he needs right now. He sighed and hugged him back.

“Yeah, hyung. I’m back.”

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After dinner (only the three of you were home), you make your way into your room and the moment you step into it, your heart starts to feel heavy. It’s as if reality hits you. And it hits you hard. That you’re all alone. That he’s never coming back to you. Your eyes start to sting. It doesn’t help that everything you see in the room reminds you of him. From the shirt that is lying on the bed – that’s your favourite shirt because he gave it to you on your last birthday. To the laptop on the table – he helped you pick it when you got your first paycheck. And of course, to that picture of you and him – a self-taken photo with you holding the camera and Jiyong kissing you on the cheek. You hold on to the picture as you felt hot liquid flow down your cheeks.

Damn, why does it have to hurt this much?

You put the frame down and you grab your jacket because you feel the need for fresh air because the whole room is suffocating you with everything Jiyong.

As you put on your shoes, you feel someone hold on to your arm.

“Seungri-yah... are you okay?”

Youngbae hyung.

“I’ll be fine. I’ll be back. I just need some air, okay?”

And you give him a faint smile.

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You walk aimlessly on the streets of Seoul thinking of ways to ease the pain that your heart is feeling. But you fail. You’ve been walking for god knows how long already and the pain is still there – getting stronger and going deeper into your entire being. Your feet are tired of walking, your eyes are tired of crying but your heart doesn’t seem to get tired of bleeding. Now you feel dizzy. And you think you’re hallucinating because you think you see Jiyong and Seunghyun walking towards you with arms around each other’s waist and you turn your back and go into the nearest phone booth. As you see them walk past you, your vision zooms in on Jiyong. And as they become smaller and smaller in your eyes, your breath intake becomes shorter and shorter. You feel weak and you need someone to hold on to. So you decide to go home because you’re a hopeless case.

You reach an intersection and wait for the pedestrian light to turn green.

You can do this Seungri. You’re strong. You know you just need rest and sleep and everything will be okay.

Green.

You’re walking towards the other side of the street because you know that’s the way home. Then you suddenly feel your phone vibrate from your pocket.

Jiyong.

Your heart suddenly beats a million times faster and you’re near the end of the street when you read the message.

Ri, I saw you too. I’m really sorry. And thank you for everything. – Jiyong

You don’t know why but you start walking back. Back to the other side of the street again. Then you feel the world stop because you don’t hear the truck speeding towards you. Nor you feel the pain as you fall from mid-air down to the ground and you’re literally bleeding your heart out. Nor you hear the screaming people that are now surrounding you.

You slowly close your eyes and feel nothing anymore.

No pain, no heartbreak.

Finally.


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Feels a bit unfinished but yeah. That's it.
 

Title: Jealousy
Author: parkchoongjae 
Pairing: GTOP / GRI / TODAE
Rating: PG13
Genre: Fluff / Angst?
Words: 495 - it is a short one. Just a drabble really.
Author's note: This is just a drabble that was inspired by this gif and the HITE CONCERT. Steph jemnise , this is for you, to nurse your broken GTOP heart. I'll be writing a GRI drabble too and somewhat related to this but not quite. HEHE.

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You can’t help but feel it.

So you wrap your arms around him. You love this boy – the boy who has grown beautifully into a young man. You’ve always been fond of him. You’ll always love him.

But you know this is totally different from the love that you have for the older man who bears the same name as him.

Ri, I cannot breathe.

You close your eyes and whisper those words to him.

You feel him whisper back.

That’s okay hyung. Just smile.

So you do what he says and you smile and hug him in return. At times like this you appreciate Seungri. He knows you and understands you so much that you think you’re hurting him so much too. You know in your heart that he loves you even though he doesn’t say it. But that’s the beauty of this young man’s love; he doesn’t demand anything in return. And sometimes, you wish you could be like him.

Now you’re getting out of the car, after the short but tiring HITE concert.  And you go straight to your room because you don’t want to feel it again. You don’t want to see them again. You shut your door lightly and look at yourself in the mirror. You don’t want to go through this whole insecurity issue again because both of you have fought about this one too many times already and it’s getting really old. But at times like this, you can’t help it.

What does he have that I don’t have?

You ask yourself. And you don’t realize you’ve said this out loud until you heard a voice answer your question.

My heart.

You hear him say. And you can’t help but smile despite all the stuff that you’re feeling right now. Only him can make you feel so depressed and happy in just a snap. You turn to look at him and he’s walking towards you.

He caressed your cheek and you shiver at his touch. He puts his lips on yours and you feel HEAVEN. You wrap your arms around his waist and you kiss him back.  You feel him smiling and he slowly pulls back.

I can’t believe you’re still jealous of Daesung. After all these years Jiyong, after all these years.  You know I love the kid just as much as you love Seungri. You’re all over the kid most of the time and did you hear anything from me? Nada. Now it’s Daesung’s birthday and you can’t spare me that? Come on, Ji. I know where I stand in your life. And by now, you should know yours in mine too.

You now feel guilty for all your drama.

I’m sorry, Seunghyun. I just couldn’t help it a while ago.

He wraps his arms around you and hugs you tight and really, that’s all you need right now but...

I love you, Kwon Jiyong. You have my heart, my soul, my everything.

...and those words sealed everything for you.